i know i've gotta let you go..

babydoll feels:: cold
sing with me:: footsteps

i am happy now. and for goodness sake, i want to be happy. i've been crying my heart and eyes out for the past few days, and i think that' s enough. you've got the tears you deserve.

hmmm.lesson of the day: never listen to your pinoy teacher especially when she's talking about love. you will tend to cry. :)

i am one pathetic girl. knina nung math, may sheet of paper ako. i wrote down, "OK NAKO NGAYON. di tulad ng dati, umiiyak sa iyo." and my bright seatmate, marianne, had to tell me this. "alam mo dongca, kung ok ka talaga sa nangyayare, nde mo naman isusulat yan ngayon." >>and she had a point. she really did. *claps for marianne.* :D

yea, sure. sad paren ako nung mga time na yun. i mean, who wouldn't be? i still miss *. no one in the right mind would not miss someone she loved for so long now.. :D

pero when i thought about it nung nagcuclub ako. i knew what i wanted to happen right now. so i asked * a question and that was it.

we're happy again.

or, at least i am.

and i will be.

*hopefully*

:D

but i'm sick. i hate colds. they weaken u too much and make u wanna sleep. sheesh. lab reports, bye bye to you. :)

babydoll feels:: worried
sing with me:: neon-spongecola

good morning. :D

i had a nice sleep. haha. pero i had a bad dream. tsk. hate it. and i don't even want to tell you what happened. it was one of the worst things that could ever happen to me. if that dream comes true, i am going to kill myself, I SWEAR. the hurt i felt in my dream was unbearable, unexplainable and indescribable. stupid dream..

pero when i woke up, i was fine. i did not eat breakfast because i am not hungry. :) haha. labo. whatever.

i was touched again knina. ruby tween called me.:) sun person den yun eh. hehe. so she called me and we talked for about 15 minutes eksakto kce ung sun, pnuputol after 15mins.. hhehe. and wala lang. may problem kce siya and natouch ako na ako una nyang tnawagan. :) sobrang awwwww. :D hehehe. tas sbe pa niya na parang best friend nren nya ako. i swear, my heart contracted when she said that. nice feeling when people make you feel that you're special especially when you're sad. :)

hehe. ang hirap nung eco research thing. sheesh. i can't even find even just a page of information. poor me. poor us. ehehe. :)

i'm proud of myself for being such a strong girl right now. :D my barkada is too. sobrang thankful ako for them.

yesterday morning, i suddenly felt i wanted to listen to spongecola, so i played their cd. tapos ung song na NEON, really struck me. kahapon ko lang narealize that krisha was right. it was a really nice song. so now, i'm listening to it, over and over again. haha. i especially love this line..

"everytime i see you passing by, i'll just stand here WAITING FOR YOU, and i will talk to myself on a lazy Sunday afternoon and I'll still sing that prayer for you, i'll be a little bit kind enough for me, while i try to be so perfect you'll see that.. no one can compare to YOU. whatever lies out there.."

its so true. especially the.. waiting for you part. because i am waiting for something and this..WHILE I TRY TO BE SO PERFECT. because i am still trying to be the perfect one for you.

haaaaaaaaay. life.

babydoll feels:: bouncy.
sing with me:: silence.

i had a really nice day. i was happy. :) sobrang everyone made me laugh today. and i got a lot of hugs. lalo na sa mga nde ko mxado close! haha. bgla akong hinuhug. which is a comforting feeling anyway..

uuh special olympics, benta. sobrang BENTA. lalo na si ayie. ang funny nya kasama. basta knina kce nung 1 na.. shmpre start of the games na.. tas parang si madon lang and si krisha ung pumunta dun sa may stage kce OSR lang naman tlga dapat. ewan ko ba dun kay krisha ba't sumama. tas yun. tapos bumili kme ng ice cream ni ayie. kaen kme. tas lumapet si krisha. sinermonan kme. hahaha. :) kce daw ang tamad namen.. haha sbe ni ayie, "matanda na kme.. nde na kme pwede sa mga gnyang laro." ahaha. sobrang bumenta saken yun. ahaha.:) tas after a while, nakonsensya na kme.. pumunta na kme dun. ahaha. tinawag nren ulet kme eh. hehe.

may joke ako. kce may bata.. ung pangalan nya jerry.. sbe ni lianne, "jerry, asan si tom?" hahaha. sobrang benta. pero corny si ayie, di nya agad nagets. haha.:) lalang sher.

tas yun. masaya. * and i ate in red ribbon. sobrang poor na pala kme. natira sa pera ko, 3 piso. 100 yun nung umaga. no more. haha. poor me. poor us.

tas dumateng na dad ko from singapore! yey. haha. lalang. shmpre punta kme glo. bumili ako ng 2 flip flops.:) ahaha. feel na feel ko eh. tas nag-aya ako manood ng movie.. kce sobrang namiss ko na manood. nanood nga kme. bewitched.. sobrang cute!!!! haha. kileg sha actually. ang cute kce ni nicole kidman eh. pero nakakainis ung mukha nung lalake. di sila bagay, sayang. pero cute pren.:) hehehe.

i wanna watch must love dogs, wedding crashers, ice princess, if only and many more..

:)

babydoll feels:: exhausted.
sing with me:: burn-usher

grabe, one tiring day.. im so tired. i wanna sleep naaaa!!! haha

grabe, kninang shakes practice, benta. nagfefeeling pep kme ni madon and ruby. nagpapaturo pa kme nung mga dance moves ng pep. haha. feel na feel. tas yun. tas nagpapractice pa kme.. 2 steps lagn alam nmen kce umuwe na si ina! hahah. pero masaya, pramis.

sweet ni kuya. knina after club, sinundo nya ako. hehe. tas bnilhan ako ng ice cream sa jabi. haha. :) ang kulet nga eh. kce asa cone ung kanya.. lalang. ang dungis na bata! haha. ;p joke. basta yun.

congrats to dottie and rashy for winning the tagis talino! talino nila sobra. parang ako, "baket nyo alam ung mga sagot?!" haha. weird. ang talino nila. cute pa kce bestfriends sila. awwwwwwwwww. :) hehehe. cutie.

ayun. tas sa club sobrang joke time. bastos yung si an at justine eh. sbe ba naman saken, nde daw sila natatakot saken kce nde daw ako nakakatakot. nakakainis. haha. kaya pala feel na feel mangasar nung mga yun! hahah. :P pero ok lang. fun nila kasama.aww, i love my club. :D benta pa si pachot, ilang beses nagpic sa fone ko. tas kinantahan nya pako ng tarzan song.. kumanta siya nung you'll be in my heart. cute nga niya eh. parang bata.. cutie.. ginagaya ung mommy gorilla and tarzan. ako daw ung gorilla , siya si tarzan. bwisit. :) ginawa pako unggoy! haha. pero benta. :)

all in all, my day was nice. ;p haha. masaya naman eh. khet may sad parts, ok lang.

babydoll feels:: drained. but happy. :)

" reality does not conform with what we want."

-ARR

*totoong totoo.

*one day, i just wanna wake up and find out that reality is a dream and dreams are reality.

babydoll feels:: busy.

i am tired.

my eyes are tired too. and i haven't started doing the thing i am supposed to do. haha. tamad ko talaga. kaya lang asa YM siya eh. and there is always this urge in me to be online and available whenever *'s online. this is stupid actually, considering i was with * just a few hours ago. ahaha. god, can't get enough. haha.

>>sheryl txted me awhile ago. sbe niya , "dongca, 2mwg ako sugarhouse. 990 pala blueberry cheeskecake nila. mahal!" parang ako.. MAHAL NGA. haha. sorry, hanggang 475 lang ako eh. red ribbon. masarap naman ah. pero mas msarap daw sugarhouse. like i care. i don't even eat blueberry cheesecake, so not my problem. :)

>>the rising of 4 commitment. god, i love my class. ;p kaya namen toh.

>> hoy leetel boy. you know who you are. you have less than a month before my birthday. REMEMBER YOUR DEADLINE. :) i will follow you. wala kang takas sken. ;p kababy group mo pa man den ako. tsk. poor you.

>>nothing's more relieving than the hours after you've cried for someone you love and forgiving them. :)

9 long months filled with tears, laughs, all night phone conversations and YMs, and hugs. 9 long months i've been in love. and i'm still glad to be. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM! ;p

babydoll feels:: contented.
sing with me:: broken sonnet

the world is so weird, you don't know what it really wants from you..

it wants you to cry and then after a few minutes, it wants you to smile.

weird world..

hehe.

we lost, but you should have seen the st scho crowd.. para naren kmeng nanalo. ;p super fun.

august 16 is a true love forever day according to some website..

i hope that it's true. :)

in 3 days, it's been 9 looooooooong months since i was taken by you.

and till now, i'm so thankful of all the people in the world you could have chosen, you picked me. :D

damn, life is too beautiful. ;p

babydoll feels:: frustrated
sing with me:: kailangan kita-orange and lemons.

frustrated.

hurt.

moody.

indifferent.

insensitive.

insulted.

downright irritated.

i'm turning into who? haha. guess who.

babydoll feels:: super special :)
sing with me:: shiver >ooldplay

im back to LJ. and i have no idea baket ako bumalek dito. ang funny. ewan ko ba. si leetel boy kce eh. [ro-an]. lalang. ang kulet eh. hehe. ayun.

meant to be talaga kme! [nde ni ro-an ah.] haha. basta. kce knina, mga 3pm, bnabasa ko ung LJ ni roan tas parang naisip kong ayusin tong LJ ko kce sobrang tagal nang nde naaayos. tas bglang nung gbe.. nakausap ko siya.. tas sbe niya, may LJ na siya. walalang. benta lang saken. kce parang, on the same day pa namen naisip sbhen na may LJ kme. well, ako LJ ako ulet. hahaha. benta saken eh. cute! haha. lalang. ayun. im just bored. haha. :D

eniwei, wala pa akong nagagawa for anything related to school. no assignments or whatever. kawawa naman ako. cram cram cram again! haha. oh well. sanay nako jan. oh well.

cge. im not in the mood to write pa. :)

*ang saya ko ngayon. sobrang kileg. haha. i feel so special. ewan ko baket. i miss feeling this way. ang cute. cute talaga. hehe. :D lalang,share.:)

babydoll feels:: normal.
sing with me:: accidentally in love

ano ba nangyre.. its been 11 days since last ako nagsulat here. hehe. funny.

mar 16  > yeaboi. 4 months and still counting. haha. :)

mar18 and 19. haha. w8 lang. may applicable na song. *habang atin ang gabi. parang wala tayong katabi.* haha. nice one.

mar 22> happy bday kaira! happy 5 months kish22! :) love u all much much.:)

*tulisan moment*

mar 23> happy bday cookie meryl KO! :) yngat po lagi. love u much! :) miss you!

babydoll feels:: tae.
sing with me:: toyang.

grabe talga. tae. ang hirap nung project sa social>> ano bang nangyre nung sept 1 1989??

news. news. news. i need them. tae.

haaay. grabe, the whole day wala akong gnwa. just prepared for something tapos un na yun. tae talaga. haha. oh well.

sheesh. one week to go! one week to go! one week to go!

kahapon, friday. sobrang enjoy sa house ni ash. nood lang kme ng unfaithful. sheesh, ang censored nung movie na yun. not really my type of movie pero ayos lang ung story. astig sha actually. pero un nga. mejo PG 15. hahaha. :) at least, i know i've seen worse. kaya yun. pero super enjoy. enjoy ksma ni ash and leo eh. sobrang kwela. haha. sheesh, i love them to bits. ang babaet eh. inampon nila ako since nilisan ako ni someone. oh well. i forgive her. naiintindhan ko naman sha eh. i can also turn down my barkada for 16. pero shmpre i'd inform them earlier. pero un nga. i understand her. mahal ko un eh. kakada ko yun eh.and super close na namen, so i can't stay mad at her. haaay. tae un eh. may powers. napapalambot puso ko. haha.:) galing. oh well.

ayun. one week to go till i have to say goodbye.

babydoll feels:: weird. haha.
sing with me:: i miss you > blink182

haaay. SC elections hangover. haaay.

pres-mian vp-codi sec-gaille treas-yumang ccc-mian osc-che che batch rep-bea

haaay.ü ayos naman saken ung SC eh. pero shmpre can't help but feel sad bout the results. 2 kceng kabarkada koh ang nalungkot eh. shmpre can't help but be sad for them too. kce aspiring talaga sila eh! tska sobrang determined sila. its just that.. ayun, they weren't given a chance. SAD. sad talaga. ewan ko ba! bahala na. i just wish they'd be happy na. hate seeing them like this.

10 06 na. and still thinking about YOU. yes, you. ü haha. sheesh. if you only knew how much i really love you. nice quote w8 lang..

* i think that sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it.. because if we actually felt how much we loved them.. it would kill us.ü*

ang cute nung kowt no! haha. yea, cguro nga. ang funny. love could kill me. crap. i knew it! ü haha.

babydoll feels:: tae. debate once more.
sing with me:: wala. ding ng ym

sheesh. tagal ko nang di nagsusulat dito! kelan ba un last>>  wait. i will check. feb 27 lang pala. mga 2/3 days ago. BASTA. haha. ü haaay. wala lang. isa nanamang ordinary day for dongca. sobrang walang nangyre. nagkatampuhan ulet kme[im starting to hate this.] tpos, wala lang. cge by subject tayo.. morning> benta, kce pumunta si tita patty sa 301.. sbe nya malel8 ata si sir, so punta daw kmeng avr. parang lahat kme, 5 minutes before 1^st bell akyat na tayo dun. haha. PARANOID kme. ü grammar, wala lang. formal theme ek ek. TAE> ang ganda ganda ni ms julian!! sobra. blooming sha. hmm. bket kaya? kainis. ang ganda ganda niya talaga. sheeesh. tapos..social na. hehe. di ren kme nakaakyat bago magbell. haha. so panic kme lahat. pero ayos naman. taposss. recess, ang kulet niya. sbe ko dun muna siya sa kada niya kce lagi nalang ako ksma niya, hiya naman ako. pero wala. ang kulet talaga. kaya cge nalnag ako. fun. ü tapos. lit na. wala naman nangyre. discuss, discuss. pumasa naman sa quiz, thank god. pero shmpre pasang awa. magaleng dongca. tapos math. as usual, nde na2man akoh nakikinig pero somehow nakakasagot naman kme ni krisha. haha. YEY. ü tapos lunch. [asan ba ako nung lunch?] aaaha, mtg de avance. ayun ayos. ang kulet. hehe. tapos.. rec. ay etoh. dito na kme  nagkatampuhan. saaaad. yoko na ikwento kalungkot lang eh. mababaw lang naman sha so wag na. ayun. basta. tpos gumawa pa ako ng paper airplane para magsorry. too bad, sablay ung airplane ko. CRASH LANDING. SAD TALAGA. haha. oh well.

babydoll feels:: malungkot na hyper. BANGAG.
sing with me:: wala. ingay ng mga tao.

comp lab>> free time. just finished doing my hands on thingy.

ayoko na talaga sknya. ang sama ko. pero kce ang mean na niya minsan eh. sobrang nakakahurt na. minsan ren nakakadown na ung mga gngawa nya. lamo yun. i know di naman nya snasadyang mging gnon.. pero talaga minsan.. tinatry ko naman sha intindhin eeeh. ayoko na ngang mainis eh. pero talagang nakakainis lang minsan. sobrang mean kce minsan ng mga nagagawa nya eh.

basta sobrang nakakadown siya. :(

tapos away pa sa kada! nakakaiyak na. rarrrr.